Take Away The Pain

Sometimes, you just want you're older siblings to fix everything. I sort of missing moment between Ron and Bill at Shell Cottage when he arrives with a tortured Hermione.
I always imagined that Ron would be distraught and confused and fall apart on Bill hoping that he could just fix Hermione, and take away the pain. Regressing to a child-like fantasy that older siblings can do anything.

I'm very sorry that this drawing isn't better, I really don't know what is going on with my drawing at the moment. It really isn't great. The background is terrible and the proportions suck. My apologies, I'm blaming it on the huge risks I'm taking in my personal and academic life at the moment. I'm feeling like I constantly have a weight on my head.

What is happening, if you want to know, has been a long time coming but nonetheless scary as shit. Basically I've decided to fuck off my course because I'm seriously not dealing with the stress and I really don't know why I'm doing it. Genetics has never been my aim in life and I feel like I'm wasting my time. So I've dropped out.

But at the same time I've applied to do Fine Art and Graphic Design, starting University from the beginning. I've had to think long and hard about this decision but I feel it's the right one. Should have done it 2 years ago really, I was kidding myself. But this doesn't mean I automatically get a place, so I'm going through the application process all over again.
Everything is up in the air and it's rather uncomfortable because if I don't get in for September 2011 start I can't reapply in 2012 due to fees going up threefold. So it's either University, or start looking for a real job.

I've never felt more anxious in my life.
Then again I'm slightly proud of myself for taking the risk rather than taking the easy route, regardless of how unhappy I was in it.

I'm taking control people. All will be well!

As soon as I draw something good, you'll be the first to hear!!